Balance

having the balance in life! Pastor Derrick preaches that once we have God and the holy spirit, He will lead me to focus on the things we have to be for that season.

All Moved Out, But Memories Stays

finally i've moved all of my stuffs out of JC's place, but does this means i've moved out completely? while in the room packing, thoughts like; " yea, finished packing, but those memories can't" lol. nah, just finished reading my previous postings, seems like i'm a ficker-minded person. Ming Yao/ JC?

nah, cant be bothered, it's not time to get myself emotionally attached and distracted. now is the time for the Lord and Xueni alone!! just the both of us.

50 more days to Promos, must really mug. if not i think i'm in a high risk of retaining.

Study Hard + Play Hard + Jesus = 1st in JJC for A'levels 2009!! ;p

The Joy Of My Family

1st Partnership with KS-Gab's present

See you at Stage 9! ;)

yea. kind of getting the rhythm to lead a fruitful life again with God. definitely walking with God isn't necessary the easiest way, we've got to give our time and our best. well, i'm willing to sacrifice my "issac"-M.Y.

this man has an attractive child-likeness in him. he can really behave like a little boy when you get close to him. his silly-ness is something that makes him so special. he is a very determined and focus person who constantly renew his mind to be on track with the Lord. furthermore, this determination of his often influences me to want to be focus with my walk with God too.

however, i finally come to an understanding that no matter how much i love to hang around with him, i can't. it will distract me from my walk with the Lord. i need to redirect myself to Him and love Him with all my heart, mind and soul.

though there was this feeling of "it's you!" in both of our hearts, but we clearly know that we're not ready. so all we can do is just to leave it to God, whose plans will be much greater than what i can think or imagine.

"if it's yours, it's yours", said Darryl

yes, i trust the Lord. it's because it's the Lord that i've handed it to, therefore i shall be double assured that all things will be made beautiful in His hands. for He knows my heart and my desires.

like what Ming Yao has been consistantly reminded me of,

Stage 1: i met him
Stage 2: Carol helped to lift me
Stage 3:
Stage 4:
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Stage 8/9: we might met again if it's God's will. He has wiser plans. so trust in the Lord!

definitely this is quite painful, but like what Pastor Tan said, we've got to have discernment in us-the gift of the Holy Spirit to see things which is unseen with our naked eyes.

Exercise my gift of the Holy Spirit! don't let it turn rusty!! :)

now my priorities:

#1: God!!! :)
#2: Family
#3: studies (God's purpose for me)
#4: losing more weight. LOL
#5: money $$

加油。加油

leave in deceive for 6 months

saw JC's nick which includes Evon's name. well, was reminded that he used to tell me he's not the kinda guy who will announce to the whole world how loving he is with his girlfriend. yea. guess that i've found out another lie of his.

i hate this feeling of being troubled by him. i dont want to! i just wanna love God whole-heartedly. i need to focus on God and my studies. just read my previous postings, i used to yearn so much for God and to glorify His name. i wanted to get the scholarship so much in the past. cant actually imagine i actually gave up all my dreams to a man who is full of lies. i dont hate him, but merely think i made the right choice this time round by leaving. definitely.

Finding Joy In The Lord Once Again

has it been a month since we'd broke up? i cant remember. definitely what i'm sure of is that JC is back together with his first and greatest love, Evon. well, i dont think i'm in a position to comment on his decision, but what i'm sure of is that, this man is too confused now to make any right decisions. He needs God. every night i'll pray that God will send an 'angel' to him to guide and protect him to walk right with God again. Temptations are great in this broken down world. i just hope he will be able to learn to resist himself and reponse correctly to them.

certainly, i've found my joy with the Lord once again. indeed, we can only fully realise a thing's importance when we lose it. that was the second time i abandoned God, i dont wanna lose Him in my life again. i love Him.

thank God for placing people like Carol , Grace and Ming Yao into my life to help me in my wak with Him. to remind me of God's promises to me and to dependent on Him,for all man shall disappoint me but not Him.

Ming Yao says, It's a test that God has for the both of us. to wait and obedience to His words before any 'green light' is given. we clearly know that this test shall last us for at least 2 years. all we have to do is just to trust in the Lord and all this shall be added on to us. Amen.