the end of year exams are coming, she don know if she can make it as she'll be woking and she doubt that she will have the time to revise. during her september holiday, she'll be working at 9-5 at paya lebar then 6-11 pasir ris. she alittle worried now. but she knows, god is a good god, he will definitely give her strength.
on wed, she and her aunt make some dumplings. this reminds her of belle. once, belle went to her house to learn to make dumplings too from her aunt. yea. she remembered they had lots of fun. though she was often being remined of belle, but she had given up. she just don bother anymore.
today, she'd receive a file from poh, her closest teacher. it's all the schools that she wish to transfer to. yea. perhaps after her exams, she'll be calling up the schools. she was really puzzled. the guy who ask her to stay doesn't seem to be doing anything to save the situation. she knows, maybe at that point he just said it to make her feel alittle wanted. he doesn't mean it. whatever it is, she don want to bother. she really doesnt want to hinder him anymore. she's just satisfied with what she have now. her family, friends,her life. but not her studies. ha.
after carol had gone overseas, she felt alittle empty. ha.yea, let's talk about something happy, she dyed her hair!!! it looks really, "wow"!! super bright. oh man, how is she gonna go to school?!! ha.
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Friday, August 25, 2006
just to let you know
recently, she had benen holding two jobs. yea. it's breen really busy for her but fortunately she made it for most of her tests.
last week, there's 13tests. and she manage to get 2B3s and the rest A1s. yea. praise the lord!! actually, she don really have much to blog about, she just wants to let everyone know that she's fine.
To Han:
no matter how rootten you think you are, or others think of you, just remember what she told you now. you're special. she has faith in you. she knows you does things for a reason. so jia you foryour exams!!
To Ed:
she thinks she'd send you a wrong message the other time. sorry. remember what you told her? you ask her to wait till your band split. now, seeing you and your friends, she doubt that that will happen and she don blame you. so, just carry on with your own life and need not bother about her.
To Carol:
yea. just enjoy yourself. she don think no one cares for you. she cares for you. really! she just wants to tell you that, maybe she's not your really really close friend, nor the one that you will turn to, but she really cherishes you.
To Sis:
hey dude! stop being negative. she thinks you're just feeling empty in life. and bear in mind that, this is life. and it's all these that made your life more interesting, isnt it? don worry about her, she's coping fine. and, yea, she thinks she should let you know this, she called that "jerk". she feels much lighter after talking to him. she feels really "shiok" after scolding him like mad. haha. and also, she wont mixed around with the bad companies at fisherman. please have faith in her.
last week, there's 13tests. and she manage to get 2B3s and the rest A1s. yea. praise the lord!! actually, she don really have much to blog about, she just wants to let everyone know that she's fine.
To Han:
no matter how rootten you think you are, or others think of you, just remember what she told you now. you're special. she has faith in you. she knows you does things for a reason. so jia you foryour exams!!
To Ed:
she thinks she'd send you a wrong message the other time. sorry. remember what you told her? you ask her to wait till your band split. now, seeing you and your friends, she doubt that that will happen and she don blame you. so, just carry on with your own life and need not bother about her.
To Carol:
yea. just enjoy yourself. she don think no one cares for you. she cares for you. really! she just wants to tell you that, maybe she's not your really really close friend, nor the one that you will turn to, but she really cherishes you.
To Sis:
hey dude! stop being negative. she thinks you're just feeling empty in life. and bear in mind that, this is life. and it's all these that made your life more interesting, isnt it? don worry about her, she's coping fine. and, yea, she thinks she should let you know this, she called that "jerk". she feels much lighter after talking to him. she feels really "shiok" after scolding him like mad. haha. and also, she wont mixed around with the bad companies at fisherman. please have faith in her.
Friday, August 04, 2006
Super thick-skinned freak
yesterday when she go to work, she heard from her bro, Xiang that this guy whose name, Patrick, asked my bro,
Patrick: "hey your sis like me arh?"
Xiang: "no la! my sis wont like you want lah. moreover, she have better taste!"
yea. after knowing this, she was really irritated. she really don like this kind of childish rumours and most importantly, she doesnt want to have anything that got to do with guys that she doesnt want to. probably other than those few that she's ok with, she hated boys!! so she cant stand Patrick's nonsense and she called that super thick-skinned freak.
"what did you say?!"
Patrick: "what i say?"
"why you anyhow tell the others i like you? please la, don think too much."
Patrick: (getting loud)"what?! i think you are the one that don think too much la! you think i'll like you?!"
"i didn't say you'll like me! it's you who say i like you!"
Patrick: (speaking loudly, but she don remember what he've said)
"why are you so loud?! you think you loud i can't is it? (vulgarities) what?!"
yea. then as you know, Patrick just hung up. stupid, how can anyone be so thicked-skinned? oh man, how is she supoosed to faced he today when working?
oh ya, today's probably her last day(if not, next week)! she's quitting. but she's sure that she's gonna miss 'ah ming'. yea. she really like that freak. he's really so special. and she knows, though he appear as so 'bo charp', but he's really a very sincere person, and really wish to cherish him. she really wants to have him as her friend, bt she cant possibly go to him and say, "can you be my friend?" right? hmm, God, i just pray to you now, don ever take this gift away.
Patrick: "hey your sis like me arh?"
Xiang: "no la! my sis wont like you want lah. moreover, she have better taste!"
yea. after knowing this, she was really irritated. she really don like this kind of childish rumours and most importantly, she doesnt want to have anything that got to do with guys that she doesnt want to. probably other than those few that she's ok with, she hated boys!! so she cant stand Patrick's nonsense and she called that super thick-skinned freak.
"what did you say?!"
Patrick: "what i say?"
"why you anyhow tell the others i like you? please la, don think too much."
Patrick: (getting loud)"what?! i think you are the one that don think too much la! you think i'll like you?!"
"i didn't say you'll like me! it's you who say i like you!"
Patrick: (speaking loudly, but she don remember what he've said)
"why are you so loud?! you think you loud i can't is it? (vulgarities) what?!"
yea. then as you know, Patrick just hung up. stupid, how can anyone be so thicked-skinned? oh man, how is she supoosed to faced he today when working?
oh ya, today's probably her last day(if not, next week)! she's quitting. but she's sure that she's gonna miss 'ah ming'. yea. she really like that freak. he's really so special. and she knows, though he appear as so 'bo charp', but he's really a very sincere person, and really wish to cherish him. she really wants to have him as her friend, bt she cant possibly go to him and say, "can you be my friend?" right? hmm, God, i just pray to you now, don ever take this gift away.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Message to all
it's been 2days. she hadn't been going to school for 2days. guess that many may think that she's slack and stuffs like that, but she knows very well that she just needs to take a break. yea. how long does she have to rest? hmm, this, she isn't sure, but soon? hopefully.
she wonders how her classmates felt? though peter said they're worried but she knows very well that peter's just consoling her. never mind. for this period, this resting period, just allow her to rest really well for her future's long tough journey and when she returns, she's no longer the same. she promised! she'll be stronger. even if in the future she falls again, she'll assured you that she'll get back on track in a shortest possible time.
during this period, she'll be searching for herself. her real self. and probably if possible, let go. she don know if she can do it and she's sure that it'll be really tough but she's willing to try. yea. perhap he isn't doing very well too? once she heard from her teacher that he was struggling too. like, he kept asking weird stuffs. so, he's probably still in his temptations. (but please, don hurt anymore innocent people!). and, i tell you, don ever try it on your sister anymore!! God, please send your angels to guide that siblings heart. allow them to sin no more!
recalling what had happened, she remembered that ed scolded him filthy. thinking of it, actually she's filthy too. in the beginning, she had tried to forgive him. really. but what he've done later hurts her even more. he doesn't sense any guilt at all. he just sellf-centredly care for his own well beings. when he learns that she reported, he message her things like, "why did you say? i thought you promised that you wouldn't report?!!" oh man! why are you so self-centred? how can you be it?
do you know what, she really feel so insecure. like, many people are gonna know it. also, she just kept remembering that scene. how helpless she was.she knows, all these while she's just being too shut down. she's so afraid of getting hurt that she don even want to try. so confuse! she's just so confused right now.
sympathy. please don ever use it on her. she don need it. she don want it either! yea. indeed, Rahmah has a great impact on her with the words she used. what sympathy? she still remember what Rahmah said. it's not that she holds anything against her, but just that that word made her doubt people.
she wonders how her classmates felt? though peter said they're worried but she knows very well that peter's just consoling her. never mind. for this period, this resting period, just allow her to rest really well for her future's long tough journey and when she returns, she's no longer the same. she promised! she'll be stronger. even if in the future she falls again, she'll assured you that she'll get back on track in a shortest possible time.
during this period, she'll be searching for herself. her real self. and probably if possible, let go. she don know if she can do it and she's sure that it'll be really tough but she's willing to try. yea. perhap he isn't doing very well too? once she heard from her teacher that he was struggling too. like, he kept asking weird stuffs. so, he's probably still in his temptations. (but please, don hurt anymore innocent people!). and, i tell you, don ever try it on your sister anymore!! God, please send your angels to guide that siblings heart. allow them to sin no more!
recalling what had happened, she remembered that ed scolded him filthy. thinking of it, actually she's filthy too. in the beginning, she had tried to forgive him. really. but what he've done later hurts her even more. he doesn't sense any guilt at all. he just sellf-centredly care for his own well beings. when he learns that she reported, he message her things like, "why did you say? i thought you promised that you wouldn't report?!!" oh man! why are you so self-centred? how can you be it?
do you know what, she really feel so insecure. like, many people are gonna know it. also, she just kept remembering that scene. how helpless she was.she knows, all these while she's just being too shut down. she's so afraid of getting hurt that she don even want to try. so confuse! she's just so confused right now.
sympathy. please don ever use it on her. she don need it. she don want it either! yea. indeed, Rahmah has a great impact on her with the words she used. what sympathy? she still remember what Rahmah said. it's not that she holds anything against her, but just that that word made her doubt people.
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