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it's been 2days. she hadn't been going to school for 2days. guess that many may think that she's slack and stuffs like that, but she knows very well that she just needs to take a break. yea. how long does she have to rest? hmm, this, she isn't sure, but soon? hopefully.

she wonders how her classmates felt? though peter said they're worried but she knows very well that peter's just consoling her. never mind. for this period, this resting period, just allow her to rest really well for her future's long tough journey and when she returns, she's no longer the same. she promised! she'll be stronger. even if in the future she falls again, she'll assured you that she'll get back on track in a shortest possible time.

during this period, she'll be searching for herself. her real self. and probably if possible, let go. she don know if she can do it and she's sure that it'll be really tough but she's willing to try. yea. perhap he isn't doing very well too? once she heard from her teacher that he was struggling too. like, he kept asking weird stuffs. so, he's probably still in his temptations. (but please, don hurt anymore innocent people!). and, i tell you, don ever try it on your sister anymore!! God, please send your angels to guide that siblings heart. allow them to sin no more!

recalling what had happened, she remembered that ed scolded him filthy. thinking of it, actually she's filthy too. in the beginning, she had tried to forgive him. really. but what he've done later hurts her even more. he doesn't sense any guilt at all. he just sellf-centredly care for his own well beings. when he learns that she reported, he message her things like, "why did you say? i thought you promised that you wouldn't report?!!" oh man! why are you so self-centred? how can you be it?

do you know what, she really feel so insecure. like, many people are gonna know it. also, she just kept remembering that scene. how helpless she was.she knows, all these while she's just being too shut down. she's so afraid of getting hurt that she don even want to try. so confuse! she's just so confused right now.

sympathy. please don ever use it on her. she don need it. she don want it either! yea. indeed, Rahmah has a great impact on her with the words she used. what sympathy? she still remember what Rahmah said. it's not that she holds anything against her, but just that that word made her doubt people.