looking back, i felt i've grown so much. longer dwelling in self-pitiness or creating unnecessary problems like how i used to when i was much younger. since when have i become so brave? HAHAH.

well, i've beening thinking, or rather, be reminded of a certain area of my life that i've been trying to ignore all these while. don worry, i just praised myself, so i'm not going to get emo. LOL. just think that i still have not had a clear stand in my heart. i wont escape, but i just wanna put it aside first and focus on more important things like A levels, w372 family, my family and God. but nevertheless, he is someone really precious in my heart, a friend that i cherish. i just cant give enough to thank him for sharing his family to me when i needed the most in the past.

had a great time with Jeff on Mon. this really changed the impression i used to have about him. haha. i really enjoyed his company for the lst time. lol. cos i feel we have this connection and it's not a one-way conversation anymore. he'd grown so much, so proud of him!! but i still cant stand the part where he tried to link himself and i together, as in we're dating. LOL. he said, " baby, i'll love u and cherish you...." and stuffs like that to me, looking into my eyes. well, though it's just a demostration from him, but i felt kinda disgusted, i wanted to burst out laughing so much! don get me wrong, it's not him dat is disgusting i must clarify, i just feel uncomfortable. he told me he's desprate to get himself a wife now. well, i hope he don ever target me! hahah.

in the midst of preparing for A'levels now. left with barely 50 days, jiayou! don ever limit God's abundant wisdom Xueni! =)

Proverbs 22:13 ‘The lazy man says, “there is a lion outside! I shall be slain in the streets!”‘.

The unwilling have no faith. Courage comes to the willing hearted. There’s always a way through but the lazy soul, the unwilling spirit will never find it.

How selfish is the lazy heart! If there was a lion, we should go out & slay it. ‘Solve the problem”‘. Don’t make it an excuse for inaction. The lazy person is more concerned about themselves than others.

The lazy person invents problems that don’t even exist to excuse themselves from work. Jesus told us to release ‘workers’ into the harvest because people who work hard will reap the harvest & destroy the devils work in the process.

Romans 8:5 ‘For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.’

Here is one of the simplest keys to living an extraordinarily powerful life. – If you think about the Holy Spirit you will live in the Spirit. Incredible!

You will live in the ’spirit’ of what your mind dwells on. If you think on the things of flesh you’ll live there. Think flesh – live flesh – death. Thnk Holy Spirit – live spirit – life & peace. What is your mind set on?

You think about what you watch, listen to, read, write & speak. This shapes our thinking. Be careful what you hear!

Put you mind on the Spirit, the Word, God & the visions you have for God & you’ll walk in the Spirit & His power.

Lets go to work!



As i was browsing through the net to get some motivations to start cracking, i founded these on Pastor Phil's blog.

well, this shouldn't persist, while it is good to read from their revelations to have greater understanding, the excitement comes from inside out and not always the other way round!

Pastor Jeffrey, from Indonesia, once shared during Leaders' Meeting on Self-leading. in order to leader people, which includes our leaders, we need to first lead ourselves WITH EXCELLENCE!! well, have i achieve that? Am i doing and working hard enough to achieve that?

recently, there are lots of things which bother me-member's well-being, cell attendance, rate of revision, personal growth.

i guess, because i love Darryl very much, just as the others, i really wanna give her a surprise when she comes back. the only thing i can do now is taking good care of all my friends in the cell, giving them this sense of "togetherness" so that they wouldnt wanna leave this place anymore. this is greater than any material gifts i can buy with money.

this period when Darryl isn't around, the greatest thing i've learnt is UNITY. not only have i learnt to break off that appalling impression i used to have with joel, i've learnt to obey and support his leadership. he not just someone God placed over me, but Darryl. He's the representation of Darryl. i wanna protect our family. thank God for that.

well, in the midst of fighting this spiritual battle together with all my friends from the cell, i have to learn to revise for A levels with God's unlimited wisdom and understanding. to draw down His revelations for the subjects that will be tests and not just in normal daily life. another word, is to apply God into my school life. there shouldnt be a separation of school life and church life in the first place. yea, learning to "chew and walk at the same time".

Let's focus our thoughts towards the Holy Spirt, the Word, God and His visions on us!

The greatness in a dream is how many dreams that it holds!