looking back, i felt i've grown so much. longer dwelling in self-pitiness or creating unnecessary problems like how i used to when i was much younger. since when have i become so brave? HAHAH.

well, i've beening thinking, or rather, be reminded of a certain area of my life that i've been trying to ignore all these while. don worry, i just praised myself, so i'm not going to get emo. LOL. just think that i still have not had a clear stand in my heart. i wont escape, but i just wanna put it aside first and focus on more important things like A levels, w372 family, my family and God. but nevertheless, he is someone really precious in my heart, a friend that i cherish. i just cant give enough to thank him for sharing his family to me when i needed the most in the past.

had a great time with Jeff on Mon. this really changed the impression i used to have about him. haha. i really enjoyed his company for the lst time. lol. cos i feel we have this connection and it's not a one-way conversation anymore. he'd grown so much, so proud of him!! but i still cant stand the part where he tried to link himself and i together, as in we're dating. LOL. he said, " baby, i'll love u and cherish you...." and stuffs like that to me, looking into my eyes. well, though it's just a demostration from him, but i felt kinda disgusted, i wanted to burst out laughing so much! don get me wrong, it's not him dat is disgusting i must clarify, i just feel uncomfortable. he told me he's desprate to get himself a wife now. well, i hope he don ever target me! hahah.

in the midst of preparing for A'levels now. left with barely 50 days, jiayou! don ever limit God's abundant wisdom Xueni! =)