I Love "Brother MJ and Sister Darryl" Hah. =P

Went to sing K togehter with Geo, Gab and Tallie this afternoon. Cant help to start reciting about the interesting encounters with the 3 people that i really looked up to-MJ, Darryl and Carol. i told them about how i used to act cute infront of "Brother MJ", at that time, whenever he was about to scold me, by calling him Uncle MJ. haha, He would then give me that "should i scold you or laugh" face! LOL. i also told them about "Sister Darryl's" long thick and black locks! but i think she suit shorter hair, she looks sweeter and more charismatic! hahah. that was the old good time 4 years back where i was still the youngest in both of "Brother MJ's" CG in Pastor Audrey's zone. Wah, time really files and i'm soon entering into the 5th year from the start of my transformation in my life!

i used to ask Darryl why she'll come to Bedok North as her portfolio 4 years back, and she just said she felt led. Recalling the past from now, it was really a long journey and alot of price to pay before winning me to God-the amount of tears shed by Carol, uncountable phone calls by "Brother MJ"! Sometimes i hope to be alittle thick-skined to think that God placed this burden in Darryl's heart 4 years back to come to Bedok North, making so much effort, bringing her whole team, just to make sure i get to God's side. HAHAHAH!!

Now that i've grown up and able to take care of people, eventhough mostly are older than me, LOL, i'm prepared to pay equal amount, or even more for the next generation, to make sure they are TOTALLY won to God's side, because i'm REALLY REALLY REALLY grateful that MJ,Darryl and Carol didnt give up on me, this ultimate needy kid 4 years back. and praise the Lord, we have some new kids in the cell, i think it's a start of an interesting and heartening story of transformations, that will be mixed with tears, anger, frustrations and much more love, joy and laughters!

My Dream

i got to really STEP OUT!

i received double impartation last weekend. hah, as i went for both weekend services and was being prayed for by Pastor Kong twice! hah. since i was being prayed for, i will receive an impartation, so got to obey and use it wisely!

the sermon was about Dream...
it seems like a double affirmation that God wants to assure, for my disbelief and uncertainty, so He planned for me to attend the same sermon twice!

actually, i've dreamt about it since i was a kid, probably 8 or 9? i always thought i was being a copycat of my sis' dream, so as i grow up, i thought less of it. probably i AM quite shy about it, eventhough i appear loud and out-going, i am actually quite shy and have a BAD stage fright! hence as i grow up, ill be embarrassed to mention this fream to anyone, because i was uncetain of myself and the future living for it. i guess, since God has called me to step out, eventhough He didnt utter anything more then just "be an entertainer in the Asian industry that is as reputable and respectable as A Mei", i just got to have an obedient heart to obey. one thing that Pastor Kong say really strike me, "even if there is no CHC, no future or luxurious life, i still feel honoured to just be able to walk with Jesus!". i was like, "WOW!" eventhough i'm still too young to own a heart like that for Jesus, but i want to have a heart that's after Him.

Cant wait for the transformation! oh yes, my dream is to be an entertainer, especially to sing! =)

I Need Him

Have i received an impartation from Pastor Kong today? He layed hand on me! LOL.

Recently feels a little dry. like, numb, layed back and stuffs, but each time i just forces myself to leave the house to work, meet friends, go to church and cg. hah, guess this is absolutely normal for EVERONE. thank God for His strength that upon me so that i don allow my flesh to have control over my heart.

well, we're gonna end 2009 soon in a few weeks time, what have i accomplished and regrets that i have for this year?

my greatest achievement for the year is probably being able to grow stronger with God and healing of all the wounds i had previously in my heart and turn it into my weapon when someone needs me. these experiences really became mireals to my life, enabling me to empathise with people more and makes my heart bigger.

as of regrets... Hmmm, i guess it's concerning my days in JJ, i dont think i'm a faithful student.


hah, i've realise a thing, i'm more and more dependent on God man! when i was much much younger, i hardly pray, until Carol forces me to and i'm perfectly fine with it. but now, even when i don pray or read the bible a day, i'll think i've lost control over my life, it feels really helpless an lost! He's like the drug and i'm the drug addict, or cigratte to a smoker! i dont think i can ever live happily without Him.

i finally realised this "it not God who needs me, but i need Him!"

JJ Prom 2009

Just had my prom yesterday. although it wasnt as boring as what eeling had discribed, but i thought it was still kinda disappointing sas we didnt manage to go out after it. since prom is to have FUN!

i took numerous photos, my mouth was acheing from smiling and i could see stars from those flashes. haha.

anyway, i'm gonna miss my JC friends and all the abrupt memories i had with them. LOL.