I Need Him

Have i received an impartation from Pastor Kong today? He layed hand on me! LOL.

Recently feels a little dry. like, numb, layed back and stuffs, but each time i just forces myself to leave the house to work, meet friends, go to church and cg. hah, guess this is absolutely normal for EVERONE. thank God for His strength that upon me so that i don allow my flesh to have control over my heart.

well, we're gonna end 2009 soon in a few weeks time, what have i accomplished and regrets that i have for this year?

my greatest achievement for the year is probably being able to grow stronger with God and healing of all the wounds i had previously in my heart and turn it into my weapon when someone needs me. these experiences really became mireals to my life, enabling me to empathise with people more and makes my heart bigger.

as of regrets... Hmmm, i guess it's concerning my days in JJ, i dont think i'm a faithful student.


hah, i've realise a thing, i'm more and more dependent on God man! when i was much much younger, i hardly pray, until Carol forces me to and i'm perfectly fine with it. but now, even when i don pray or read the bible a day, i'll think i've lost control over my life, it feels really helpless an lost! He's like the drug and i'm the drug addict, or cigratte to a smoker! i dont think i can ever live happily without Him.

i finally realised this "it not God who needs me, but i need Him!"