Heartache

can i say that a new chapter has started now? yea. things have ended, but the fact, the truth she must really admit to herself is that she still cant let go of "her" Uncle.

she's no longer working due to a big scene her sis had created on last sunday. nah, she didnt actually blame on Mar, but just that, ya, there's one lesser reason for her to get near to Uncle. for the past few days after that incident, she was kind of aggitated. she had a really bad control over her emotions. she really likes him. can you understand how serious she is? she thinks that Mar knows that this is really important to her and she's really fussy with this kind of things-relationships.

for this one whole year, she had been really careful. trying to protect herself, not getting hurt, not falling again. hence she had make a definite choice before anything happens and she thought this cant be wrong. she trusted that man so much.but he betrayed her trust? she really thought he felt for her too. at least a little. she always thought that. she don expect him to her too, neither did she expects anything back from him. she just want to continue this rare feeling of excitedment and happiness that he had got her. but even so, he refused to allow her to dote on him, to like him. even until now, she still will refuse to admit this, but she cant, as this had became a real fact.

scenes of Uncle and his girlfriend kept flashing in her mind. how she wish her mind is like a computer, then she could very brave and delete them, not allowing it to bother her. not at all. how can he treat her like this?! he said this before

Uncle:"no matter how empty and lonely i feel, i still want to remind single!"

isn't this what he said? seeing him so sweetly with his girlfriend, she still refuse to admit it. she was still telling herself that, "perhaps, perhaps he's just a close friend of my Uncle" yea. how gulible can she be? the worst part is that she got to admit it as she got to know it from their friend, directly at her face, telling her to give up. her heart was really heavy. her heart ache. this is no exaggarating. that disappointment, sinking, heavy feeling her heart is facing. can you understand?

Uncle, wen can she actually say bye bye? how can you be so carefree. disappointed. this is more of what she feels. Uncle, you betrayed her trust! looks like you don need her to dote on you as you had found your "her".

you're no longer my Uncle, you cant be anymore.

黑夜渗透了想念
偷不走微光闪现的千种画面
我背着伤痛离开
孤单拖着记忆支离破碎
原以为不会改变
眼泪在脸颊上干枯失去知觉
我的心挣脱了爱
跟随着夕阳埋进了海洋
为什么相爱的人却又为爱而纷争
现实的翅膀扰乱了原本幸福的气氛
我有我的过错
我有我的疑惑
藏在面对面的折磨背后
为什么让爱躲进乌云密布的天空
随着风漂流在外一点一点的散落
慢慢远离的梦
渐渐冷却冰封
心痛都当初相遇的心动
慢慢远离的梦
渐渐冷却冰封
心痛都当初相遇的心动