Talentime

Finally, Talentime is over!! Net and i got 1wst runner up for our Vocal Group category. I'm really very glad that my natural family and spiritual Family were all there to support me. nevrtheless, i was still a little disappointed that a few of my best friends were not able to be there.

Thanks W372, u are the best!

well, finally God had came to redeem my friendship with Geo. we had a GREAT and LONG chat after cg on sun. i really misses those days that we would giggle about the tiniest joke and do crazy stuffs together. i'm so sorry that i didnt spend as much time with her these period. LOL. i will try to make it up and be a best friend to her. i love Geo! LOL.



Really got to thank God for such wonderful connect group that He has blessed me with all my best friends, jie jie and mei mei. HAHA. i felt Van and i are closer now as we became more understanding towards each other and consistantly pray for each other and be each others' pillar. thanks van!



certain things are definitely hard to let go and let God, and this is the time God is looking out for the most willing vessel, i want to be the one.

wow, just had my semi finals. LOL. net and i got in for finals!
i was quite nervous. i actually fogot some lines. HAHA. but i think we did not too bad.

God of my Refuge

i had been feeling sick for the past few weeks. i really hate being unwell. it made me feel weak and helpless.

during cgm today, we sang "my God is greater, my God is greater... God of my refuge..." and i uncontrollably allowed tears to roll down. i weeped. i cried to hard that i couldn't even sing, yet in my heart i'm singing so assuredly, "my God is greater, my God is greater... God of my refuge.."

life really is not an easy course to go through. when i was crying about my helplessness, the girls beside me were crying more aggitatedly than me. i guess they need God's healing too.

Great CGM

ok, just remembered i MUST post this which was supposed to be posted yesterday, but i was too drained out.

yesterday cg was G.R.E.A.T, GREAT man!! LOL. haha. the presence of God was so strong. i'm not sure if the others felt the same, i'm sure they do. lol. the joy was beyond words to describe. i really feel that God has assured everyone who needs that assurance and answer. Also, God has draw us back to this family again. LIke what Joel has visualised, i believe we can grow to 30 by August. i see the glimce of it now. I LOVE YOU, God.

Ang's Birthday

okay, this was Brace Ang's bday at Swensen's!! Dont you think we looked alike after the similar hair cut we had? LOL

Conversation with Jia

ok people, this is my super short hair and the right is slightly longer. the left is shortuper short hair. Basically, that's supposedly the style.

just went to visit Chime's granny at bedok and followed by a short catch-up session together with Jia Hui. apparently, Jia is in SOT now. LOL. i'm so proud of him.

we chit chatted a little and ended up in a leadership conversation.

Jia: "Xueni do you wanna be a leader next time?"

Me: "Yes"

Jia: "Who do you wanna lead?"

Me: "Definitely not Chin Por. HAHA"

*Chime made abit of noise as you know

Me: "probably delinquents? i have a heart for them. but i dont mind tertiary students. those easier to handle. LOL"

Jia: " i think being a leader is all about wisdom. Especially when you're placed in situations and that you're able to show Godly wisdom, then people will respect you."

Yea, it's always nice to hang around with Jia. i learn sometime new.







hah, this is my hsndsomne uncle i guess he's the most handsome man i've ever seen in my entire life. no joke. it's just that he a little older and plumber now. LOL.

FAT FAT

BAD Hair Cut

ok, i'm back after a week of dissapearence. LOL. just had a horrendous hair cut yesterday. i don't like it! :( it's too short. (sigh) bad mood bad mood bad mood.

SLEEPY

ok, let me update you with some current juicy news of myself before i passed out. LOL.


yea!! tommorow is Easter!! cant wait to watch the super funny drama. i've just gotten back my A' levels PW (Project Work) results. i've gotten a B for it. hmm, i was expecting an A, so i was kinda disappointed. ok, don digress. LOL.

i'm really very sleepy!! there seemed to be never ending workload, God, THANK YOU FOR STRETCHING ME!!! lol. tonight is another mugging night for me. i really got to pray to be more productive. though i'm really much productive now, but i'm sure there are more rooms for improvement.


in this moulding period, i feel so much stronger and focus now, praise the Lord.




as you can see, your dearest Yeo Xue Ni is super sweaty and smelly after her 2.4 NAFRA and BRACE ANG is trying to hug her!! oh no, gross. HAHA




































wow, we're so power, 9 people to one table. can you see, jocelyn, BRACE ANG and i were not sitting on chairs but metal rods. that's why we looked shorter, though partly it's because i'm short la. LOL





















this was taken after the PW exhibition. the girl beside me is my group leader Xing Ying and she's super naggy. LOL.

A "to be continued" Ending

yea. just spoke to Darryl ytd regarding the issue. well, it's a "to be continued" ending, which means I'll need to give DA JIE, God, "regarding party" and myself an answer when I'm ready and clearly sorted out my thoughts. this will most probably be after my A's, cause i don't wanna distract myself.

DA JIE told me to love myself more. I've always thought I've already overcomed my inferior complexity issue. LOL.

anyway, initially i was quite unsure, but after speaking to her, i felt better. i know where i'll be heading to, what am i going to expect and what am i exactly waiting for. however, i definitely need more time for other more "chim" issues and i cant deny that i still am thinking of this isssue when the pace slowed down. don worry, but i am really lightened and happier now.

here are some pics taken during my family outing. oh no, FA FAT really looks like a hamburger!!

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moving on with the fast pace of life, everything seems fruitful and filled. however, at night or when the pace has slowed down, i still cant deny that i'm thinking of certain issues. whatever it is, God and i know that this is a moulding ground for me. what a great news it is, though it can quite emotionally draining for this period. it's a GIFT from God.

i'm aiming to complete all the HW that i've owed by this weekend so that i can start my revision for common tests and A's. i'm getting the hang of it, though at times i still feel like voluntarily pass out on my bed (sleeping) the minute i reach home. but God is good, He reminded and prompted me to study first. i've never been as productive since JC life, and i know it's God who has given me strength to do whatever i'm doing now. praise the Lord.

easter is coming, our connect group is believing for 15 friends. i must also be faithful in inviting frens. lol. jia you.

Long-Term Investment

i see this as a long-term investment. just spoke to Darryl after cgm. i realised she has more faith in me than i do for myself. she kept imparting faith into me that i'll definitely be a great leader and i can feel a seed of vision to be a leader in my heart. most importantly, the investment i am talking about is "sacrifice". many things are just not the right time now and the only thing i should do is WAIT, which i think can be quite frasutrating, but this is just how God stretches me. how can i go if He hadn't told me to? confession really helps in conviction. i told Darryl, " i am very clear now that i still have so much room for growth, i do not want anything, especially this issue to stagnent or hinder me." after saying that, i was like, wow? was it really from me? yea, God will put His words into my mouth. i am affirmed that i'll be a great leader. ultimately, i trust God of our friendship.

yea, Easter is coming!!! woohoo!!! i'm going to invite all my classmates man. i really hope this will be a life changing easter for my family as well.

i learned something new

ok, just had my CGC meeting with DA JIE- Darryl, it was another convicting experience. She practically blows me off each time we meet.

she taught us how to pray, lead and have balance in life.

yea, i think i'm not being very wise to try to follow-up on the whole world with the abusement of my "unlimited SMSes". just do whatever God has callec me to is good enough, basically, don't be a busybody!

yes, i got to really plan my schedule. i have a week of hols, how am i going to fully utilise it with BALANCE? this is really challengings especially i still have the SIMUN to attend for full three days this march hols!

oh yes, updates on AH MENG's birthday celebration! though i didnt manage to hand him his present on that day itself, due to some annoying reasons, but i guess God had planned it. this chapter still ended off beautifully when we really took special care to protect it.

he asked me, "are you scolding me because you're angry or because you love me?" yea. he really means sense to me this time round, i have learned something new...

Thanks for Your Affirmation, God

sorry guys, my blog is not dead yet, just kinda busy lately.

recently i've been kinda invloved in organising events and playing leadership roles. it is not necessarily, "oh, i'm given this position to lead", but it's more of, "i want to inspire".

yes, i wasn't given any leadership roles in school, but i still bear this attitude of wanting to inspire.

just spoken to DA JIE- Darryl on sat, well it was really affirming. somehow i was affirmed once again of the things God has in mind for me-academically, spiritually, in relationship, in friendship and at home.

she had thought me to listen to people's voice and people's hearts without asking them, but just by observing. yes, this is kinda CHIM. lol. i mean, she didnt directly teach, but she just told me stories behind each person that we'd discussed and it was what i've learned and concluded from there-"learn to listen".

next thing is "balancing" i ought to have a balance in life, which i know i'm not really good at, somethimes. so she told me not to be over-helping, which i think i often will. ok, i'm learning and progressing. cant wait to see how God will transform me into this time round. HAA. He always surprises me!

and, special thanks to Van jie jie for being me my connect group to support me through. she's really one of the reason for me to hang on. she's constantly there to encourage me when i felt defeated. i told DA JIE, "somehow vanessa and i know each others' heart eventhough we don't talk to each other much" yup. i felt connected to her and feel so "sister" with her. probably one of the reason is, she really resembles me sister a lot. haha. i think she will make a pair of great friends with my sister. lol.

okay, in five days time it'll be our dearest AH Meng's birthday!! i am so excited. it is as if it's my birthday. lol. cant wait to present to him the present which i've searched for almost three weeks. ha. Sat will be a great celebration togehter with his cg members!!

Fred Up!!

first of all, let me apologise for posting such an angry post.

oh no again! another unproductive weekend for me! i need to rebuke that in the name of Jesus! i hate being unproductive. it makes me feel not only that i'm useless, and makes me feel oppressed with mountains of work! however, i cant deny that it's due to my laziness. yea, i'm a lazy procrastinator still.

i'm totally fred up with the report that i'm suppose to do. like, "what is Transparency and Regulations in Banking Practices of Ukraine?" does anyone has any idea? LOL.

ok, it's Sunday again and i didnt even touch any of my tutorials yet. i'm so dead. Oh God, save me!

well, forgetting those fred up issues, i have a good news to announce!
my DA JIE-Darryl is pregnant!! WOOHOO!! i'm so excited! cant wait to see the lovely baby in August!

Reports for this 2 Weeks of School

it's CNY eve, which means school has started for about two weeks. i tell you the workload is WOW! i cant feel more alive than this.

basically, my freak ong is in with me for this. we're signed up my our teachers for every supplementary lessons, every remediations, every tests and everything you can think of to aid us in our studies. LOL. the first week was overwhelming but the second one was more lax. i will only reach home at earliest, 1030pm everyday. and for your info, i wake up at latest, 5am every morning and sleep at earliest 130am. just too much work to bne done to fulfill my curfew from my DA JIE-Darryl to sleep by 12am. BUT... i am trying to adjust to fit into in, cause, my body is the temple of Christ. yea.

i cant feel more alive than this man, it's tough and seems mission impossible for everyone, which includes myself, but i just know i cant be closer to God than now. i know if He doesnt turn up in my everyday life i would be doomed! SERIOUSLY! He's just so great! and every night, i will only sleep when i've heard from Him in my quiet time, cause i need Him every single second of my life. i can truly understand what Darryl was experiencing with God in her adolescence days now. she said, she knew if God doesnt turn up everyday in her life, she'd be doomed. just like me now!

recently i've received so weird responses from my pals.

from one of my good friend from church: total ignored. i think she's angry with me which puzzled me, but i still love her very much , don worry. i know God will handle it.

from the freak and blur cork ang: lots of love during CNY. LOL. they bought CNY goodies to my place! really appreciates them!

from my pal, ah meng: "you're the one who have neglected me" (in a joking tone) lol. i thought it was really funny, cause it sounded really gay to heard it from him. HAHA (no offence)

SUN is Powerful!

woohoo, school's reopening in 3 days time. i've decided not to waste my youth at young! (as what Darryl has prompt) so i'm going to act cute and tie two pony tails to school to try it out for the first week of school. HAHA.

oh no, one disaster, i haven't even written my name on my hols homework! dead, i'm going to be so dead. God, i guess you're laughing at your irresponsible YEO XUE NI right now and thinking, "don't pray to me to help you. I won't." LOL. okay, got to really work hard from now on. (though it was what i usually say and still not done)

another plan: to form study group with mugger meng and some of our other friends? like, Jeff? people who are interested, please call me. HAHA. why form study group? cause i want to be good girl and obey God and Darryl's words. plus, i want my breakthrough with God and i still need to rise up man!! yea.

some words for thoughts now. the interview of Sun two weeks ago really impacted me. i tell you, it inspires, motivates and most importantly, it made me, this famous procrastinator, work!! LOL.

Sun: "i get really frustrated when i fear."

yea. me too

Sun: "the people in Hollywood are really really hardworking, creative and talented. they are all passionate in whatever they are doing. so we got to be humble and learn from them."

yea, even top music people who are so talented are working really really hard for their passion, the more i should be because of God!

Pastor Kong: "how do you feel after you read those comments from the critics?"

Sun: "it depends on when i read it. sometimes i get angry and other times i laughed at it."

Sun: " initially i got really upset by them, but i just told myself i couldn't care about it. i only need to account to God."

well, her faith really impacted me. not even her husband that she tries to please, but God. and she's definitely not any hypocrites. she's really frank.

Pastor Kong: " some members would like to play a part in the humanitarian works that you are doing, but they are afraid they will have no time for it. how can they help?"

Sun: "well, you'll always make time for what is important to you."

oh yes! that is it man! powerful statement! yea. stop all procrastinations.

jia you Xueni! i can Ace my A levels!!