just face it

sometimes she really cant face the fact that ppl come and go. she just cant accept that ppl wouldnt treat u as good if they no longer interested in u. many years ago, she had already realised it but maybe she nv really thought of it for very long, so eventually forget all abt it. but now, she start realising it again. many of her friends are like this, and they had left her. yea. and all of their reasons were the same-she's no longer important to them. why is ppl so realistic?

she had just meet up with some of her friends for dinner. she feels that this friend of hers is mentally unstable and he's trying to help others. i mean, how can a person who cant swim help a person who's drowning? so she think that he need to know. she tried to tell him this, indirectly, but he cant understand her, so she just tell him straight. but she thinks that her words were too "impactful" which might have hurt him.

she thinks she must have eaten the wrong things today. she was lecturing yanhan infront of others!! she knows that she had made him so embarrassed and he might not be as close to her after that, but this shall not made her change her thinking cos she only stand out for the truth. and b'cos she cares for him. if he don understand this, then she can assured that he's immature. and also, she really didnt like it.

yea. mature? let talk abit abt it. it's just some title ppl put on you, she thought. actually no one is mature as this word is just used as an opinion from ppl. some may think you are while others are not. as different ppl have different views and opinion. yea. so u don have to put it to hard. no one is mature in this world and the mature ppl others is talking abt are just sensible. able to understand their surroundings well. yup.

oh, kenneth's online now. had kenneth forgive her? she wonders. all these while she really feel so bad abt him. so sorry. she long wanted to say it to him personally and talk things clear, but she didnt have the chance. actually she still miss him and will often think of him. she really hope that he will still miss her.

she's really so empty. she thinks she need some hugs. she miss those hugs which have touched her. she especially miss that man who's the first person who have hugged her. that was when she's in sec1. she was crying and he used his big and gentle hand to held her head, and place it on his broad and comfortable chest then held her warmly. she was crying in his arms. she felt so touched. probably the most touching thing that had ever happen in her life yea. she just miss that.