Saturday, October 28, 2006
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Coincidence
she no longer fantasise about Uncle. but she cant deny that she misseshim. she will still, often be reminded of him. thinking about him, she started realising something surprising.
about a year ago, she cant remember the exact date, but she is certain that it was last year,she went to Fisherman with Mar and Lynn. Lynn was all excited with her friends as it was her previous workplace. Lynn was introducing her friends and xueni started noticing this man. he looks short, but somehow she was attracted by his back-view. he was standing a distance away from her.
now, recalling it, she realised that that man she saw might be Uncle, or rather, she thinks it's him. it's the same person. oh, is this what people are saying-FATE? if that's the case, can she be assured that they will meet again despite that Fisherman will be closing in this coming sunday and that meansthere's no way for her to see him again. yea. suddenly, she was reminded of a phrase in her compo. she wrote about Uncle too. "other than his name and workplace, she know nothing about this man." yea. that's what she wrote. anyway, he already has a girlfriend.
the irony here is, now, she wish that fate can really bring them back, but at the same time, she dont as she feared that by the time they were brought back together, she will no longer desires him. is this love, or just an affection? whatever it is, she is sure that it will fade away, ya?
if it was fate that brought us together,
then why is it drawing us away too?
is it a ment to be,
or just another prank?
if it was a prank, i will say
i'm not fit for it
cause i've fallen in it and started sinking, drowning
then, you are telling me to get out, it's just a joke.
he was just a stranger before.
one that shouldnt be entering my life,
not appearing in my memories.
but what a big joke you had brought to me,
distrupting my peaceful life,
get me all corked up.
this time round,
i think i've really fallen and drown.
about a year ago, she cant remember the exact date, but she is certain that it was last year,she went to Fisherman with Mar and Lynn. Lynn was all excited with her friends as it was her previous workplace. Lynn was introducing her friends and xueni started noticing this man. he looks short, but somehow she was attracted by his back-view. he was standing a distance away from her.
now, recalling it, she realised that that man she saw might be Uncle, or rather, she thinks it's him. it's the same person. oh, is this what people are saying-FATE? if that's the case, can she be assured that they will meet again despite that Fisherman will be closing in this coming sunday and that meansthere's no way for her to see him again. yea. suddenly, she was reminded of a phrase in her compo. she wrote about Uncle too. "other than his name and workplace, she know nothing about this man." yea. that's what she wrote. anyway, he already has a girlfriend.
the irony here is, now, she wish that fate can really bring them back, but at the same time, she dont as she feared that by the time they were brought back together, she will no longer desires him. is this love, or just an affection? whatever it is, she is sure that it will fade away, ya?
if it was fate that brought us together,
then why is it drawing us away too?
is it a ment to be,
or just another prank?
if it was a prank, i will say
i'm not fit for it
cause i've fallen in it and started sinking, drowning
then, you are telling me to get out, it's just a joke.
he was just a stranger before.
one that shouldnt be entering my life,
not appearing in my memories.
but what a big joke you had brought to me,
distrupting my peaceful life,
get me all corked up.
this time round,
i think i've really fallen and drown.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Heartache
can i say that a new chapter has started now? yea. things have ended, but the fact, the truth she must really admit to herself is that she still cant let go of "her" Uncle.
she's no longer working due to a big scene her sis had created on last sunday. nah, she didnt actually blame on Mar, but just that, ya, there's one lesser reason for her to get near to Uncle. for the past few days after that incident, she was kind of aggitated. she had a really bad control over her emotions. she really likes him. can you understand how serious she is? she thinks that Mar knows that this is really important to her and she's really fussy with this kind of things-relationships.
for this one whole year, she had been really careful. trying to protect herself, not getting hurt, not falling again. hence she had make a definite choice before anything happens and she thought this cant be wrong. she trusted that man so much.but he betrayed her trust? she really thought he felt for her too. at least a little. she always thought that. she don expect him to her too, neither did she expects anything back from him. she just want to continue this rare feeling of excitedment and happiness that he had got her. but even so, he refused to allow her to dote on him, to like him. even until now, she still will refuse to admit this, but she cant, as this had became a real fact.
scenes of Uncle and his girlfriend kept flashing in her mind. how she wish her mind is like a computer, then she could very brave and delete them, not allowing it to bother her. not at all. how can he treat her like this?! he said this before
Uncle:"no matter how empty and lonely i feel, i still want to remind single!"
isn't this what he said? seeing him so sweetly with his girlfriend, she still refuse to admit it. she was still telling herself that, "perhaps, perhaps he's just a close friend of my Uncle" yea. how gulible can she be? the worst part is that she got to admit it as she got to know it from their friend, directly at her face, telling her to give up. her heart was really heavy. her heart ache. this is no exaggarating. that disappointment, sinking, heavy feeling her heart is facing. can you understand?
Uncle, wen can she actually say bye bye? how can you be so carefree. disappointed. this is more of what she feels. Uncle, you betrayed her trust! looks like you don need her to dote on you as you had found your "her".
you're no longer my Uncle, you cant be anymore.
黑夜渗透了想念
偷不走微光闪现的千种画面
我背着伤痛离开
孤单拖着记忆支离破碎
原以为不会改变
眼泪在脸颊上干枯失去知觉
我的心挣脱了爱
跟随着夕阳埋进了海洋
为什么相爱的人却又为爱而纷争
现实的翅膀扰乱了原本幸福的气氛
我有我的过错
我有我的疑惑
藏在面对面的折磨背后
为什么让爱躲进乌云密布的天空
随着风漂流在外一点一点的散落
慢慢远离的梦
渐渐冷却冰封
心痛都当初相遇的心动
慢慢远离的梦
渐渐冷却冰封
心痛都当初相遇的心动
she's no longer working due to a big scene her sis had created on last sunday. nah, she didnt actually blame on Mar, but just that, ya, there's one lesser reason for her to get near to Uncle. for the past few days after that incident, she was kind of aggitated. she had a really bad control over her emotions. she really likes him. can you understand how serious she is? she thinks that Mar knows that this is really important to her and she's really fussy with this kind of things-relationships.
for this one whole year, she had been really careful. trying to protect herself, not getting hurt, not falling again. hence she had make a definite choice before anything happens and she thought this cant be wrong. she trusted that man so much.but he betrayed her trust? she really thought he felt for her too. at least a little. she always thought that. she don expect him to her too, neither did she expects anything back from him. she just want to continue this rare feeling of excitedment and happiness that he had got her. but even so, he refused to allow her to dote on him, to like him. even until now, she still will refuse to admit this, but she cant, as this had became a real fact.
scenes of Uncle and his girlfriend kept flashing in her mind. how she wish her mind is like a computer, then she could very brave and delete them, not allowing it to bother her. not at all. how can he treat her like this?! he said this before
Uncle:"no matter how empty and lonely i feel, i still want to remind single!"
isn't this what he said? seeing him so sweetly with his girlfriend, she still refuse to admit it. she was still telling herself that, "perhaps, perhaps he's just a close friend of my Uncle" yea. how gulible can she be? the worst part is that she got to admit it as she got to know it from their friend, directly at her face, telling her to give up. her heart was really heavy. her heart ache. this is no exaggarating. that disappointment, sinking, heavy feeling her heart is facing. can you understand?
Uncle, wen can she actually say bye bye? how can you be so carefree. disappointed. this is more of what she feels. Uncle, you betrayed her trust! looks like you don need her to dote on you as you had found your "her".
you're no longer my Uncle, you cant be anymore.
黑夜渗透了想念
偷不走微光闪现的千种画面
我背着伤痛离开
孤单拖着记忆支离破碎
原以为不会改变
眼泪在脸颊上干枯失去知觉
我的心挣脱了爱
跟随着夕阳埋进了海洋
为什么相爱的人却又为爱而纷争
现实的翅膀扰乱了原本幸福的气氛
我有我的过错
我有我的疑惑
藏在面对面的折磨背后
为什么让爱躲进乌云密布的天空
随着风漂流在外一点一点的散落
慢慢远离的梦
渐渐冷却冰封
心痛都当初相遇的心动
慢慢远离的梦
渐渐冷却冰封
心痛都当初相遇的心动
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
an angel's birthday
ha. yesterday mon and xueni planned to give their "angel" a surprise. thiugh it didnt turn out that well in the beginning, but it's sure a memorable and touching wan.
in the beginning, han seen to be suspecting and stuffs. so this made her a little irritated. but later it went on smoothly with the help of han's mum. mon went to han's place first. xueni and joey den went up and hide in han's mum's room while han's bathing. the wait for han to finish his 30mins bath and den yup. he went into his room, they den knock his room. when he open his door,
"happy birthday!!" the three jump out and scream. ha.
she thinks he's touched. his mum too. everyone were really touched. for the first time, she thinks she'd finanlly done something great for him. yea. happy birthday, my angel.
the children's day
yea. let's first blog abt her birthday. basically it ended up more like a "04" gatering. but what ever it is, it sure was a memorable one for them.
why she say them? because she din't actually enjoy herself, instead, feeling really down that night. she saw her Uncle. the man. that man that she had planned long ago to be celebrating her special day with her. though it did nt turn out the way as she wished, but it's all expected. he wished her happy birthday. acting so claim and still as cool as ever. yea. nothing had happened. is this all that he'd used all these while to deceive himself, like what xueni did? oh man, where does all his assurance come from? can he give some to her to make her feel better? though han kept telling her that Uncle is not nice or stuffs, but she's just so assured that he likes her too. it's not all her wishful thinking this time. she's really definite that he feels for her. but maybe just some personal reasons, he can't accept it, not even to himself. what ever it is, she knows, he's not the man.
ok, her birthday? they just drank alot and get drunk? ya? but not her, of cause. she's just high. ha. yuan told her she snored when tey're taking a nap. arh.. of cause she beg them not to tell the others about her embarrassmoents. haha.
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