I'm HAPPY

i guess I've figured it out for myself of what's lacking in me that makes me feels my life isn't the fullest! i used to vaguely think it was probably lack of friends, money, night life, entertainment, family, not performing academically, or even ah meng's disappointing responses. however, i've never once doubt God about this.

it's my mind and heart. they are not in line, which causes double-mindedness and di-vision as what Pastor Tan had preached about. its really simple, it's just a change in your thoughts-filtering away the bad ones.

recently just realised that i've really neglected God by overwhelming myself with relationship issues. sorry God.got to really make it up for God.

i'm happy now. like, though this month is really tough for me-no $$, relationship issues, learning self-control, best/good friends transitions and haven revise J1 work at all, but God is still the best! i'm still joyous. praise the Lord!

during our thanksgiving cell meeting last sunday, it really prompted me to want to do more for my cell.

best cg member: my new good friend, Pearly
most spiritual: Yi Quan
most cheerful: my good friend, Geo
most courageous: Joseph
most faithful: my partner, Kiat
most encouraging: ME!! lol

i was very surprise they voted me as most encouraging, cause i don't think i've done much for them. (so got to really buck up) oh ya, and i lost my good friend, Geo by one vote for the most cheerful award. HAHA. don't worry, i won't kill her. very happy for her, cause i voted for her too. yea.



hello ah meng, are you reading this? i wanna tell you i know you're learning to be gentle to me now. though you didn't tell me, but i know your effort. cause you've realised how nasty you've been to me. LOL. don't worry, i know your heart. good job so far. i really appreciates it.

Learning to Live Life to the Fullest

finally met up with my pal, ah meng, yesterday. really very very happy! yea! why? okay people, don't think too much and stop guessing. well, because he finally realised how nasty he had been to me. haha. like i've said, he'll always use that "all perturbed" tone to criticise me and that's what exactly happened yesterday, twice. i didn't stupidly compromise this time round. it's not that i no longer love him (as my pal), but i just wanna be more natural. i don't wanna give him an impression of "wa, Xueni is so patient" and years later if anything develop then he goes, "last time Xueni was so sweet and patient, now like a tigeress!" lol.

furthermore, he tried to be gentle and loving by helping me to paste the plasters on my leg. woohoo, like a Cinderella. haha.

oh well, what about God then?

erm, got to find a new secret place. LOL. cause my uncle is sharing room with me and i cant pray in my room anymore. haven been praying for three days, guess that God must have missed me. LOL. well God, i didnt abandon you. yea. i need more of you to enable me to have brakthrough academically, spiritually, emotionally and physically as well.

in the midst of cultivating my passion for God.

oh, this is a video of our family's FAT FAT, trying to crawl but failed, so she cry. haha.

Merry Christmas!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

well, guess what, my cell has brought 29 new friends and out of it, 5 decisions were made, this Christmas, praise the Lord! one of the decisions made is my student-Ivan! haha. i am really very happy man. i really hope he will stay in our cell to join this happy family!

well, i have received SO MANY presents! haha. but none was from my pal ah meng. (so you know what to do now ah meng? LOL)

okay, just realise there are many readers who are following up on my blog. cause Mei Yin and Li Yun were like, "oh, i read your blog." yea. so i guess i got to be really careful with my postings. i hope i didnt slip off any secret. haha.

i've realised in all of my recent posts, my pal, ah meng, seem to be the supporting character. LOL. kept mentioned by me. yea. guess that he is really very dear to my heart. (for those of you whose names are not mentioned, it's definitely not that you are ot important to me. if you're feeling so, that just mean you got to pick up your phone now and dial XUENI to your phonebook.)

okay, what about ah meng this time round? hmm, really proud of him for bringing two friends! (applauds***-clap clap clap) though they didnt respond to alter call, but i guess this is a great start. just got to continue to do follow-ups. well, it seem to me that i haven seen him for a long while. as in like, quality time. at least 2 weeks i guess? hmm, i think got to dig him out of his "busy" schedule soon. LOL.

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MJ joked: "wa, maybe next time you'll become my sis-in-law!"

wow, time really flies!! it's approaching Christmas again!! woohoo! every Christmas i'll hope to invite my friends to the church and watch our world-class drama. LOL. just last year, i've brought Val. but unfortunatly, she left as i left. however, i know this year is not going to be the same. it's going to be the best Christmas ever.

just talked to MJ and Darryl yesterday and realised how a weak Christian i am. sigh. it's not that they said it openly, but through the conversation that's what i felt about myself. i'm supposed to be old and experienced enough to take GOOD care of myself. like, i've not been under parental guidance since 14 years old, ya? but i'm still not rational or practical enough to think of the consequences or monetary issues before i make any decisions. yea. really thiknk that i should learn to be more practical and stop dreaming like a little girl.

MJ: "the only way for your family to get out of the cycle of poverty is for you to get your degree."

yea. totally agreed!

as for with my pal ah meng, they suggested us to go SLOW, however i hope we wont distant too. as in, don intentionally avoided each other. i still want to be in contact and know his heart. LOL. greedy me.

MJ joked: "wa, maybe next time you'll become my sis-in-law!"

LOL. eh....................... i think i'll be quite a stressful thing. HAHA. no offence, but you know. this family is my spiritual leaders. haha. don think too much, just leave it to God. yea.

stay happy XUENI and ah meng!! love God much much more!

looking forward for the breakthrough that is coming soon!! yea. jia you.

Listen My Ah Meng

i was on the line with my pal, mugger meng just now and i just learnt that he wasn't doing well lately. having terrible financial tribulations which left him broke out. after knowing it, he left me with two feelings, guilt and hurt.

i really felt so guilty. like i didnt realise i kept demanding from him more and more care and concern. getting really greedy, to a certain extent. because everytime he sees me, he'll definitely used that irritated tone and said to me, " why are you so blur? you're not sharp at all." or some other negative report which will then make my day really bad. i love to hang around with him, but sometimes this actions of his really made me too perturbed till i'll have thoughts of rather not to meet up. okay, complaints aside now. like when i went online just now, i then realised he actually sent me offline messages. i guess he must have missed me, cause there's no one to hear his complaints and to be scolded when i'm not around. LOL. also, he made the effort to fetch me at the airport when i returned from Seoul as i'd told him i'm the only retard who doesn't have any family fetching me. so many acts of love he had demostrated to me, yet i still unreasonably demand more from him.

okay, why hurt then? because i thought we are very good friends, yet when he is going through this tough period in he life he didn't want to share it with me and kept it all to himself. i really wanna share with him, understand his pains, share his hurts and cry together with him in tough times. this is what friends are for! when he feels pain, i'll feel the pain in the same extent too.

so ah meng, remember you won't be alone in the dark. at least blur queen YEO XUE NI will always cry together with you. and really thank you for loving me.

S.Korea Trip

shopping districts...

makan at japanese restraurant

guan yi and i










jess and i

breakfast with my roommates

the terrible breakfast













the korea special shrimps burger

korea pretty Mcdonald's uniform

my econs and entrepreneur strand















woohoo!! i'm back from Korea!!

wanna know what i missed most? it's Singapore's food! the food there in korea was kinda terrible. the mee and rice practically just taste the same to me (for some strange reasons which i don know why either). i guess it's because singaporeans are used to eat strong taste stuffs like, hokkien mee, fried oyster and stuffs, but koreans eat bland taste things. the only thing i find it nice was the beef, which is Ying Quan's favourite too. (it was him who intro it to me, on the plane when we're flying to korea) however, i just went to fengshan 85 market which is the paradise for all food lovers. so i proudly announce to you that my crave for singapore food is finally satisfied. LOL.

okay, the one week trip there was amazing. it's really an eye opener for me. as in "wow, i never know there is such things going on." yea.

at Changi Airport, everyone's family was there except mine, as usual.

on the the there, i was thinking like, "i wonder who i'll be sitting with. better be someone nice so that i can make friends with. but let's hope not Ying Quan." guess what, when we board the plane, i asked the air stewardess, "where's 22J?" then i heard some voice across saying, "oh, i'm sitting at 22K!" and that fellow was Ying Quan! just how "lucky" can i be.

well there are definitely reasons to why i didnt want to sit beside YQ and it all happened!!

1. i fell asleep on the plane, the next thing i know was, YQ saying, "wa, you were sleeping on my arm, nice sleep?"
2. at some intervals of my sleep, i woke up and found YQ's head lying on mine while mine was on his! that looked so wrong man! and the worse part was, Mr Ho was sitting diagonally left to us, and i bet he saw it!
3. YQ was like a little boy. so excited about the breakfast, especially his favourite, korean beef!
4. i was like a total retard, not knowing how to operate the flight entertainment, so i tried to press every button and ended up pressing the button which called the flight service. LOL
5. another retarded act from your dearest YEO XUE NI. i tried to open the "window" on the plane, never do i expected that the sun was shoning so brightly that i was immediately blinded by it. and i left YQ there laughing at me! oh no, really feel like killing him!

Day 1:

when we've touched down in korea, we immediately visted BK Dongyang Plastic Surgery Clinic which blur cock Grace ang asked me to help her to ask about the price for doing cheek bones and double eyelids and obviously i didnt! otherwise everyone might think i'm the one. haha.

Day 2:

we had an interaction with the SAGE finalists. and there i've made friends with 5 great trendy korean elites! LOL. and i ended up got teased by Barbie Boy (guan yi) and ivan for wanting to make friends only with cute korean guys. oh come on, why would i be so desperate? it's more of the korean guys wanting to get to know cute singaporean girl, like me! (haha, joking joking) however, jokes aside, i think i'm really very inspired by them, their courage to dream and all.

then, we visited Gyeongbok Palace, National Folk Museum and Seoul Tower.

outside Seoul Tower (Teddy Bear Museum). Min Wei, Anna and i

Day 3:

we had dialogue with the SIA GM, Mr Lim at our hotel.

then, we NCSoft visited, which is a SME that produces online games such as, Lineage.

the rest of the days were fun too. but i haven got the chance to take more pics as my camera was low batt!!

upon arrival at the airport, my aunty meng and Chims came to fetch me. i really appreciates it. like, i'm not alone agian this time round. LOL.

okay, i guess i'll upload more pics on the trip soon when i've receive them from Anna. bye.