Listen My Ah Meng

i was on the line with my pal, mugger meng just now and i just learnt that he wasn't doing well lately. having terrible financial tribulations which left him broke out. after knowing it, he left me with two feelings, guilt and hurt.

i really felt so guilty. like i didnt realise i kept demanding from him more and more care and concern. getting really greedy, to a certain extent. because everytime he sees me, he'll definitely used that irritated tone and said to me, " why are you so blur? you're not sharp at all." or some other negative report which will then make my day really bad. i love to hang around with him, but sometimes this actions of his really made me too perturbed till i'll have thoughts of rather not to meet up. okay, complaints aside now. like when i went online just now, i then realised he actually sent me offline messages. i guess he must have missed me, cause there's no one to hear his complaints and to be scolded when i'm not around. LOL. also, he made the effort to fetch me at the airport when i returned from Seoul as i'd told him i'm the only retard who doesn't have any family fetching me. so many acts of love he had demostrated to me, yet i still unreasonably demand more from him.

okay, why hurt then? because i thought we are very good friends, yet when he is going through this tough period in he life he didn't want to share it with me and kept it all to himself. i really wanna share with him, understand his pains, share his hurts and cry together with him in tough times. this is what friends are for! when he feels pain, i'll feel the pain in the same extent too.

so ah meng, remember you won't be alone in the dark. at least blur queen YEO XUE NI will always cry together with you. and really thank you for loving me.